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Human, and Yet

Funny how there can be things that beset me as I walk along in this faith walk…

I struggle with saying things before I think, which not having a voice has put a stop to and caused me to give thought before I say anything…

I struggle with reading online smut, really it’s the drawing away of my affections and time to a fictional love that is ‘safe’ but a waste of my efforts…

I know this, the appeal has been less so, I want to be so sold out for God that it follows me around in the air…

I don’t want to lose my connection with God, and so a lifestyle of repentance on repeat is actually what I am learning is normal while on this side of time…the flesh, what I want, actively wars with what God wills…but God has overcome the world, and as I yield to Him more, it gets easier…

I don’t want to waste my love on anything less then the Lord, He is the only one deserving of my everything…

I want to be sold out for God, that He is all I live for, I want my soul to so dance for God as David danced before ADONAI:

Now King David was told, “The Lord has blessed the household of Obed-Edom and everything he has, because of the ark of God.” So David went to bring up the ark of God from the house of Obed-Edom to the City of David with rejoicing. When those who were carrying the ark of the Lord had taken six steps, he sacrificed a bull and a fattened calf. Wearing a linen ephod, David was dancing before the Lord with all his might, while he and all Israel were bringing up the ark of the Lord with shout and the sound of trumpets.  2 Samuel 6:12-15

Unabashed don’t care what others think, flat out worship to God

That is what I want…

In fact, David was so passionate about his worship that this happened:

As the ark of the Lord was entering the City of David, Michal daughter of Saul watched from a window. And when she saw King David leaping and dancing before the Lord, she despised him in her heart.

When David returned home to bless his household, Michal daughter of Saul came out to meet him and said, “How the king of Israel has distinguished himself today, going around half-naked in full view of the slave girls of his servants as any vulgar fellow would!”

David said to Michal, “It was before the Lord, who chose me rather than your father or anyone from his house when he appointed me ruler over the Lord’s people Israel—I will celebrate before the Lord. I will become even more undignified than this, and I will be humiliated in my own eyes. But by these slave girls you spoke of, I will be held in honor.”

And Michal daughter of Saul had no children to the day of her death.

2 Samuel 6:16, 20-23

May this so happen to me, may I so worship the Lord that it causes envy in the hearts of others!

I love this story because David is frankly so in love with God, that a forever documented account of David’s love for God and the bitterness of his wife are written in the Scriptures.

I’m not alone in the struggle, and the fight…But, readers I figured I’d share, because it’s who I am…

Love you guys, stay blessed…


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