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Choose God, Choose Life

As the days go by we choose how we spend out life breathed time. every human on the face of planet earth…

Each person shows the handwork of God almighty, the heavens declare His Glory…Both those that believe and follow Him and those that choose not to…

The God like ability to be self aware, to reason, to choose…Is a gift every single one of them…

God is simple and yet profound awesome and loving, Holy Awesome and full of a Holy Jealously…There is no high like the Most High 😀

I’m telling you God is so Good! Ask and receive the entirety of who Jesus is who the Holy Spirit is…Out of our belly’s come rivers of living water, that water that Jesus spoke of that was from Him where we wouldn’t thirst nor hunger…

God fixed my car! It needed to be fixed, my father’s inspection wasn’t a big bill!

Praise God!!


If I could pour out the Spirit through this post, through these typed words…Can I just say that God has given me Garments of Praise in exchange for a spirit of heaviness, and Oil of Joy in exchange for a spirit of grief, beauty for ashes!

He moved the mountain of cutting my body to hell!

He saved me!

He is faithful, He is Truth in the flesh!

He is alive and well!

Grab hold of Jesus, He will not let go, even when you yourself want to give up! 

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A Glorious Upset

What looks strange, in the midst of the madness there will be power rung by heaven, the heaviness of God poured out ‘upon all flesh’ as it was in Acts, as it said in Joel…For Adonai’s name sake, for everything good and perfect is from the LORD!

For His own sake He will lift those who put their trust in Him, He will lift them up! Vengeance from God takes a form no one sees coming, it always has and always will…

revenge comes in the form of salvation of those who have once persecuted! For how is evil overcome? With good! With the goodness of God! what better revenge on the darkness then to push the gates of hell back with new children of God!

One heck of an upset!

What makes us for a second think that the same Son of Man who overturned the tables when He was here upon the earth, what audacity have we to think that He who overturned tables of the money changers won’t overturn court rulings or turn the world on it’s head for His Glory?!

When Daniel was persecuted, when they brought charges against him for lifting the God of Israel up in prayer, Daniel kept on praying and the jaws of the lions were slam shut because of the angles keeping them shut, but they devoured those that threw Daniel there in the first place.

In Isaiah chapter six verse one:

In the year that King Uzziah died, I saw the Lord, high and exalted,seated on a throne; and the train of his robe filled the temple. Isaiah 6:1 NIV

In that day Egypt and Iraq will be connected by a highway, and the Egyptians and the Iraqis will move freely back and forth between their lands, and they shall worship the same God.  And Israel will be their ally; the three will be together, and Israel will be a blessing to them. For the Lord will bless Egypt and Iraq because of their friendship with Israel. He will say, “Blessed be Egypt, my people; blessed be Iraq, the land I have made; blessed be Israel, my inheritance!” Isaiah 19:23-25 NLV

God will have the final say, God bless your inheritance, God come quickly and Lord I lift my eyes up to You to behold Your Glory, Your Might, Your Peace that passes anything I can grasp and I don’t want it any other way.

Your Way alone Lord God, Your Kingdom Come YOUR WILL be DONE ON Earth as it is in Heaven!

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Get Up and Fight!

Those that are of God, stand. We are of the nation of Israel, we are of the root of Jessie grafted into Yeshua’s olive tree. The light of the world lives within us!

I say this to my own soul as to bloggers also, take hold of life! In Jesus there is victory, abundance but not as this world offers.

When the enemy tempts with old thoughts of ‘well you could cut yourself’ or ‘it won’t hurt to hide xyz’ then turn around and accuse…News flash it’s why he is called the accuser of the Children of God…

The darkness knows the way, truth and life and authority that dwells dormant within many who are baby Christians…

the ‘falling away’ is taking place, and with sorrow I see those that are in my generation that are hopeless, depressed, entitled, bound up in sin of self or sins of bitterness, rage, anger and unforgiveness…

I shine the light within me as best I know how, hoping it reaches some that read what is written here…

The biggest person I had to forgive was myself…and get ‘myself’ out of the way to live for God…

‘I’ do indeed die daily, for didn’t Jesus say ‘let those who follow me take up their execution stake daily.’ ?

Did he also say ‘count the cost, and consider before you set out to build your house least you not finish it and become a mockery?’

did Jesus not say ‘Build your home upon the rock, the rains came and the waters came up but the home remained secure.’

Paul mentions in 2nd Timothy Chapter 2:1-7 AMP

So you, my son, be strong [constantly strengthened] and empowered in the grace that is [to be found only] in Christ Jesus. The things [the doctrine, the precepts, the admonitions, the sum of my ministry] which you have heard me teach [a]in the presence of many witnesses, entrust [as a treasure] to reliable and faithful men who will also be capable and qualified to teach others. Take with me your share of hardship [passing through the difficulties which you are called to endure], like a good soldier of Christ Jesus. No soldier in active service gets entangled in the [ordinary business] affairs of civilian life; [he avoids them] so that he may please the one who enlisted him to serve. And if anyone competes as an athlete [in competitive games], he is not crowned [with the wreath of victory] unless he competes according to the rules. The hard-working farmer [who labors to produce crops] ought to be the first to receive his share of the crops. Think over the things I am saying [grasp their application], for the Lord will grant you insight and understanding in everything.

In God you don’t have to know what you’re doing. You just have to know Him who does.

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The Letter Sameka (Hebrew)

The 119th Psalm is the longest one. Take note of the letters at the top of the paragraphs and you’ll discover a richness beyond compare.

I’ve decided to break these down for you guys because it adds to the depth and richness of God’s Word. 🙂

Today I read the section with the Letter Sameka as follows:

ס samek


I hate those who are double-minded,
But I love and treasure Your law.
You are my hiding place and my shield;
I wait for Your word.
Leave me, you evildoers,
That I may keep the commandments of my God [honoring and obeying them].
Uphold me according to Your word [of promise], so that I may live;
And do not let me be ashamed of my hope [in Your great goodness].
Uphold me that I may be safe,
That I may have regard for Your statutes continually.
You have turned Your back on all those who wander from Your statutes,
For their deceitfulness is useless.
You have removed all the wicked of the earth like dross [for they have no value];
Therefore I love Your testimonies.
My flesh trembles in [reverent] fear of You,
And I am afraid and in awe of Your judgments.

The meaning of the letter ס samek is: ‘to uphold’ ‘to lean upon’ ‘to support.’ The letter itself is in the shape of a shield.

The meaning here is obvious.

God is our strength and shield, the refuge for those that place their trust in Him alone.  

In awe of God, in respect of Him, I stand amazed.

We as humans are complex, so is God.

And yet in approaching Him ‘with clean hands and a pure heart.’ Many times (for myself) it’s just being honest with the Lord and saying ‘Lord I’m a mess, here it is, take it.’

Ever note the heart of God? Of what God calls valuable?

The heart, the intent, the root. From Genesis to Revelation God is full of mercy, and grace. Extending it now to all mankind, there is no excuse. 

Everyone now has a choice, in this grace era so taken for granted.

I am a thinker, an artist of sorts.

I identify with Paul so much, aside from the whole jailing people who were Christians and killing them. I identify with the zealousness of Saul.

For my own version of ‘Saul’ was in my own strength attempting to ‘figure out God’ to make atonement for sin through my own blood (I didn’t know this until God showed me and I repented.)

My passion, my purpose, my ‘autistic nature’ to believe people and give them the benefit of the doubt when out of line with how Yeshua (Jesus) has made me to be.

Filling up my gas tank with oil or sludge, I burn out and break down.

What I feed my soul via music, reading, movies on the web etc. will surface in how I treat myself and how I treat others.

I’ll admit I fill up on smut on the web sometimes, I struggle with lust. I struggle with overeating, overexercising.

Being held accountable with a trustworthy person at church as well as counseling and of course God is how I keep myself out of trouble.

However, with my zeal for the Lord when I am in line. When I sing worship music, listen to uplifting messages, look up to my Redeemer. It is then that I fill my gas tank with gas.

Or as the illustration of the virgins with the oil lamps some had oil and some did not. That is representative of ‘gas’ or ‘time spent with God’ doing it even when you don’t want to.

This is when I am ‘lit up’ for God and it’s so obvious to myself and others!

I’m a bit of an all or nothing, my bent.

When I’m depressed buddy I am. (as event in some of my posts.) :/

But when the Lord’s joy shines out of me, despite things ‘going wrong’ is when I overcome through God.

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Stop Holding On and Just Be Held


Much thinking about the ‘fear’ of ‘big xyz’ falling where it may and letting the dust settle…Then I remember that I have a hope that isn’t meant to be kept silent or to myself, but shared person to person…

I have done my part and then some as a citizen of the united states IE. writing letters, calling people, being encouraging when I wrote and when I called but also presenting issues and what I believe to be the solution to them and wishing blessing from God onto those I wrote or called…

I still continue to do my part, but often am called ‘higher’ as a citizen of Heaven first and foremost…

Lately I’ve been in a funk, more lethargic then usual and the fight to even get out of bed has been difficult in the last two weeks, and I realize that when the basic things become a fight, that in my own strength I cannot take another step…

But allowing myself to be held by God and let go of the things that I am trying to keep together, but allow them to fall into place in God’s arms…

Isn’t it funny when you make the effort to truly change for the better that the uphill climb and the ‘get up and fight’ some days is just not there…

That lets me know that something is correct and to lean on the Lord even more…

This is a bit of an unguided ramble post and honestly I’ve been out of energy in the last few days…

refreshing comes from God and Him alone, and many days it’s minute by minute…

Let the pieces fall where they may and fall into the bed of grace God has prepared for you,

make time for God and fight for that time because once you get alone with God and even give an effort that is not that much when you don’t have the fight in you, He will lift you up to be refreshed (take as long as you need.)

Prayers for energy to get into God’s presence daily would be greatly appreciated… 

Thank you bloggers 🙂

From the bottom of my being I hope that each one of you find, discover and uncover the God of Israel, come to the knowledge and the Truth of Him who so loves you He gave of His life to totally change radically alter history and radically alter your own future into something that becomes beauty from the ashes you have now…

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Lashon hara (evil tongue)

I attend a messianic congregation and what I love about this is that the concepts of the roots of the christian faith which are many times overlooked, are lived out and brought to light at the congregation I go to.

One thing brought up this past Teaching Tuesday was Lashon Hara aka. any form of communication if it’s not helpful, building up etc. don’t say, type, etc. said negative thing.

It states that as a person thinks so they are in Proverbs. In fact many of the verses in the book of Proverbs speak on the subject of gossip, spreading a bad name, etc.

In the book of of Ephesians almost the entire second half of the book speaks to this very thing.

Do not let unwholesome [foul, profane, worthless, vulgar] words ever come out of your mouth, but only such speech as is good for building up others, according to the need and the occasion, so that it will be a blessing to those who hear [you speak].

Therefore become imitators of God [copy Him and follow His example], as well-beloved children [imitate their father];  and walk continually in love [that is, value one another—practice empathy and compassion, unselfishly seeking the best for others], just as Christ also loved you and gave Himself up for us, an offering and sacrifice to God [slain for you, so that it became] a sweet fragrance.

But sexual immorality and all [moral] impurity [indecent, offensive behavior] or greed must not even be hinted at among you, as is proper among saints [for as believers our way of life, whether in public or in private, reflects the validity of our faith].  Let there be no filthiness and stupid talk, or coarse [obscene or vulgar] joking, because such things are not appropriate [for believers];

but instead speak of your thankfulness [to God].  For be sure of this: no immoral, impure, or greedy person—for that one is [in effect] an idolater—has any inheritance in the kingdom of Christ and God [for such a person places a higher value on something other than God].

Let no one deceive you with empty arguments [that encourage you to sin], for because of these things the wrath of God comes upon the sons of disobedience [those who habitually sin].

 So do not participate or even associate with them [in the rebelliousness of sin].

Ephesians 4:29, 5:1-7

Pretty clear cut when Paul wrote this letter to the believers in Ephesus. It is still applicable to us now.

How we speak (and I myself have removed some of the posts I wrote that were not OK) write, type, body language is to be of a heart of Love, and not negative as far as what is said.

I myself give into self-pity and or just things that drag up my past as if I needed to for example show a grotesque picture that I took years ago to ‘prove’ I struggled with self harm.

In a sense it’s harming myself to drag that up again, for I am no longer that woman. I am the woman who is being washed and renewed daily (and lordy I’m working on it, with God’s help.)

I was convicted by the holy spirit “hey Hannah, take that down sweet.’ ‘you don’t have to prove anything to anyone dear, you are not that girl any longer, don’t drag around a dead version of you that is buried.”

Pricked me to the soul, stung. But, in obedience and trust I did so.

Note: just as an example, I am by no means any different then anyone else, saved by grace and working out my walk with reverent fear and awe of God.

Watching what we type, speak, say body language convey is so important. The heart behind why we do the above is just as crucial.

Speaking the truth in Love, and being slow to speak, slow to anger but quick to hear saves so much trouble in the long run.

So fellow bloggers share your thoughts on this topic.



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Words Will Be Accounted For

“You brood of vipers, how can you who are evil say anything good? For the mouth speaks what the heart is full of.  A good man brings good things out of the good stored up in him, and an evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in him. But I tell you that everyone will have to give account on the day of judgment for every empty word they have spoken. For by your words you will be acquitted, and by your words you will be condemned.” Matthew 12:34-37

I often wonder if the Lord were walking around today what He’d say. Probably not too far from the above. Remember, Yeshua (Jesus) was alive during a really awful time as well in the middle east. There was Rome, the area Jesus lived in was explosive as those that started riots against Rome almost all the time is around the time He started proclaiming the Good News.

It’s exactly like the times we are in now! Those that were the Torah teachers (not all of them, but a large number of them) had a ‘holier then thou’ stance to Jesus (the freaking Son of God!)

I will admit, the above scripture convicts me. What I type on the net, what I say out loud will all be taken into account one day! It will for all of us.

It’s sobering, humbling and causes me to yield to the will of God for my life.

The more time you choose to spend with God daily, you will become more repetitive to His words I promise.

I mention this to say in love to the blogging community, Jesus does indeed love us. But it also says, God disciplines those that He loves. Like a parent would.

He’s not a God of wrath, but of Justice and Mercy.

For His own reputation sake, He will not destroy those that are His children totally. He is Love, and as such He does these things to soften our hearts to His heartbeat!

I myself have had trouble bingeing at night lately, and it grieves me.

But, God has reminded me ‘What is not possible with men, is possible with Me.’

His truth crushes the lies of even my own head. His truth of, ‘Hannah, you don’t live by bread alone (the things of this earth, including food) but by every Word that comes from My Mouth.”

I am learning how to be satisfied in Him, not in my weight, my dress size, my xyz you name it. I need to get rid of ‘me’ and get more into ‘Him.’

Our church has called a three week fast, and for the past week I have been up at night eating till my stomach hurts. Then working out the next day in excess. (a form of purging)

I am realizing, just taking time each day to be with God will be the commitment I make. Just keeping track of what I eat daily, because I am having a gastric sleeve surgery in June this year.

I ask for prayer from those that read my blog. I need strength and I find  it only in God.

The prayers of His people He listens to.

May you have a blessed day, love you guys.





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God’s Courtroom

From the time I was just 12 years of age, I loved the descriptions of heaven. The one in Revelation with the foundation of gemstones always fascinated my mind as a kid.

I looked up all the gemstones and imagined them in heaven!

Recently I’ve come across Daniel 7:9-10, another description of God that I love.

As I looked,

thrones were set in place,
and the Ancient of Days took his seat.
His clothing was as white as snow;
the hair of his head was white like wool.
His throne was flaming with fire,
and its wheels were all ablaze.
A river of fire was flowing,
coming out from before him.
Thousands upon thousands attended him;
ten thousand times ten thousand stood before him.
The court was seated,
and the books were opened

As a child I loved this passage because I could picture God opening up the Eternal Court Room session. I’ve always loved law, more so God’s laws!

The picture painted above just makes me want to sit on God’s lap as the court is seated and books are being opened.

I love books first off, second that just sounds like a neat day!

Anyhow, God has rained, is raining and will continue to do so forever.